A Letter To Myself – in the past

Dear Younger Me,

There’s so much I could say.  You’re only a year younger than me right now.  But there is so much coming ahead of you.  Treasure every moment.  There is going to be fear you’ve never felt.  There is going to be joy that you can’t imagine.  There will be sorrow beyond belief.  It will be a rollercoaster ride.  But there is nothing I will say to try to prevent any of it from happening.  I won’t tell you what it is, or how it happened.  I won’t tell you.  But I will say that in the end, it will all be worth it.  You will grow closer to your kids than you could ever imagine.  You and Cody will have a relationship that is so much deeper than comprehension.  Your faith will be tested, and will be found to be strong.  You aren’t without fault.  You will YELL at God.  Both in your head, and literally out loud.  You will be scared.  You will be angry.  You will lose a LOT of sleep.  But you will learn lessons I couldn’t begin to outline in a simple note.  It will be worth every moment of agony.  It will be worth every single sleepless night.  It will be worth the PTSD that is left as a shadow.  Because you can’t truly know the joy of life without tasting the fear of death.  I wouldn’t want to do it again.  I pray you never relive this past year in any form.  But if we do, I know from the year I’ve just come through that we will survive because God will carry us.  He will carry you high on His shoulders this next year.  Because there will be times you can’t even begin to walk.  And I promise you, He will never, ever let you down.

-Your self, one year in the future

This note was inspired by the following song:
Dear Younger Me
by MercyMe

Dear younger me
Where do I start
If I could tell you everything that I have learned so far
Then you could be
One step ahead
Of all the painful memories still running thru my head
I wonder how much different things would be
Dear younger me,

Dear younger me
I cannot decide
Do I give some speech about how to get the most out of your life
Or do I go deep
And try to change
The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me
Even though I love this crazy life
Sometimes I wish it was a smoother ride
Dear younger me, dear younger me

If I knew then what I know now
Condemnation would’ve had no power
My joy my pain would’ve never been my worth
If I knew then what I know now
Would’ve not been hard to figure out
What I would’ve changed if I had heard

Dear younger me
It’s not your fault
You were never meant to carry this beyond the cross
Dear younger me

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

Every mountain every valley
Thru each heartache you will see
Every moment brings you closer
To who you were meant to be
Dear younger me, dear younger me

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

Author: travelwchristy

I am a work-at-home travel agent who is mom to two beautiful children, a wife to a fabulous man, and blessed beyond compare!